gettingittogether

When you win an award, it’s like everyone gets to see, publicly, that everyone else agrees, publicly, that you are special. This fact points to another fact: there is a difference between being publicly special and being privately special. There is a difference between private roles and public ones, and awards help reinforce these roles. Ok, but who cares? I just want an award. I want to feel special in any way. Notice me! Recognize me! Validate my reality and share in it! I need you to do this. If you don’t, I feel lost, unvalidated, ++unawarded++!! Today I will not win an award. Today is lost. I am not special today, only sleepy and resentful of having to station myself at the text minion station… my desk. My text minion desk. Where I hang all my minionly accoutrements and decorations in order to look upon them and see that the authors of these posters and magazine pages share my reality. O! 

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